Ever since I was young, I wanted to grow up to be my dad.  Before I came to Narconon, I was becoming him.  My dad was an alcoholic.

I had always been told I would never be able to change so I thought I would always have the label of  an addict or alcoholic and that I would inevitably die as an addict or alcoholic.  My dad committed suicide when I was 11.

When my son was three months old, he was taken from me by my mom and step-dad because of the drugs and alcohol I took.  The night before the court date for the custody hearing, I took a handful of benzos and drank a fifth of whiskey.

That’s the night I tried to commit suicide. At that point I didn’t feel like I had anything else to live for. I was tired of myself and I wanted the pain to end.

Until I went to Narconon. Narconon showed me that drugs and alcohol weren’t the problem. They were the “medicine” for my “pain”.

The Narconon program guided me through a process that showed me a way to handle the traumatic events of my life.  They didn’t tell me what was wrong, they guided me so I would be able to figure it out on my own.  They allowed me to do it.

Now, I am a proud father of a beautiful son and I am a daddy.  I have my self-worth back.

I stopped what I considered would be the inevitable.